Thursday, February 15, 2007
Happy Valentine's Day!
I received my FIRST VALENTINE'S DAY PRESENT ever! I received a beautiful bunch of flowers from a very very good friend of mine. I think it was just because he felt sorry for me NEVER having received anything before (yes I seem to have a talent for choosing the most unromantic guys-sigh!) but hey it was still just lovely!
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
blah blah blahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
I feel blah today-maybe the last few days lol. I just feel so tired and just don't feel like doing anything........ I am getting very tired of studying all the time and CANNOT wait to be finished and have my degree!! WOOHOO!!!! I think it is worse at the moment due to not having a break over Christmas/New Year this year. It will be worth it in the end though-I hope!!!!
We had a friend of mine from Sydney stay with us a couple of weeks back which was great, haven't seen him for about 3 years! We didn't do that much, movies, playground with the kids, maccas for coffee and kids playing in the playground, a trip to the city, to the beach and we went to the brand new State library (the old one was pretty sucky) and the gallery of modern art or GOMA for short. GOMA was fascinating-a real eye-opener!
The kid's father is coming next week for 3 days, they are excited about seeing him as they should be but I of course am not. We are going to stay at a little mobile villiage which has everything you could think of- playground, mini put-put, pool and even bird feeding! The kids will love it I think. We are not staying at my house-even for the last night of his stay as is usually the case because I don't think it should be up to me to put him up everytime he decides to drop in for a visit. Yes I am a bitch I know. The thing is, I am happy for him to come and see the kids but I do not want him staying at my house. We are over and have been for a looooooong time, even before I left Japan and having him stay even for one night complicates things. He can afford to stay in a motel nearby, I mean he seems to be able to afford to drink and party all the time, why not pay for his accomodation?? He certainly doesn't pay much for his kids!
Yikes I really am feeling negative and blue at the moment but everything is getting to me at the moment.
We had a friend of mine from Sydney stay with us a couple of weeks back which was great, haven't seen him for about 3 years! We didn't do that much, movies, playground with the kids, maccas for coffee and kids playing in the playground, a trip to the city, to the beach and we went to the brand new State library (the old one was pretty sucky) and the gallery of modern art or GOMA for short. GOMA was fascinating-a real eye-opener!
The kid's father is coming next week for 3 days, they are excited about seeing him as they should be but I of course am not. We are going to stay at a little mobile villiage which has everything you could think of- playground, mini put-put, pool and even bird feeding! The kids will love it I think. We are not staying at my house-even for the last night of his stay as is usually the case because I don't think it should be up to me to put him up everytime he decides to drop in for a visit. Yes I am a bitch I know. The thing is, I am happy for him to come and see the kids but I do not want him staying at my house. We are over and have been for a looooooong time, even before I left Japan and having him stay even for one night complicates things. He can afford to stay in a motel nearby, I mean he seems to be able to afford to drink and party all the time, why not pay for his accomodation?? He certainly doesn't pay much for his kids!
Yikes I really am feeling negative and blue at the moment but everything is getting to me at the moment.
Monday, February 12, 2007
A new year, a new me............
Well it is another new year and time for resolutions- not! I do not think it is worth the effort to make a promise that is, in all likelihood, NOT going to happen! I love my chocolate to much to give that up and I don't smoke or drink (much!) so not much to give up or change anyway! hehe!
One thing I have decided for the new year though, is to end this farce of a 'marriage' and get a divorce, yes divorce. The ex and I have been separated, living oceans apart, for 4 and a half years and I am tired of loose ends. The ex STILL does not want one, why I have no idea although I suspect it has something to do with the taxcuts that married men receive in his country.......... Pity he didn't throw some our way! Anyway, the secret is out! I have told him before that I want one and he said that he didn't but this year it is going to happen anyway! As I told him- he can still see the kids whenever he wants but not as my husband (in name only anyway these days), just as their father.
One thing I have decided for the new year though, is to end this farce of a 'marriage' and get a divorce, yes divorce. The ex and I have been separated, living oceans apart, for 4 and a half years and I am tired of loose ends. The ex STILL does not want one, why I have no idea although I suspect it has something to do with the taxcuts that married men receive in his country.......... Pity he didn't throw some our way! Anyway, the secret is out! I have told him before that I want one and he said that he didn't but this year it is going to happen anyway! As I told him- he can still see the kids whenever he wants but not as my husband (in name only anyway these days), just as their father.
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